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| Sunday, July 5th, 2009 | | 6:44 am |
long time no post
I havent posted here in an age. mostly because i really have nothing interesting to say! I could tell you the mile stones that maggie has hit, but thats sort of a cop out. having nothing to say about ones self and reverting to talking about children is sort of lame! Work is good, its busy. I took five days off because luis has a cardiac episode, so i wanted to be home with him should anything else happen. nothing happened, but i got to take him to his xrays and make his follow up appts for him. we bought furniture for the living room, we refinanced our mortgage. I'm reading "the TIme Travelers WIfe" which im enjoying pretty much a lot. today i am alone with maggie and i wish i had a friend to take out on a play date. I think God would be disappointed to know that i typically join bible studies when im loanly and want to hang out with other women... =) | | Wednesday, February 11th, 2009 | | 5:40 am |
so tired.
I cant wait until i get my copy of "i was a great mom before i had kids" I'm feeling like there is no club for me. I'm not the "my baby is crawling, rolling over, sitting up AAAAAAAAND doing long division" kind of mom, but i'm not a non-mom and those are the only two groups im aware of. Were are the moms-who-love-their-babies-but-kinda-wan t-to-go-to-a-movie-without-guilt moms? | | Monday, January 19th, 2009 | | 5:25 am |
New Year, New President, almost old.
My birthday i wednesday. I always liked having a new president the day before my birthday. Its like the country got me a present. and when Clinton was elected the first time, there were cupcakes two days in a row (things i miss about 2nd grade...) Actually this is only my third Inaguration that actually mattered. Clinton Part 2 and Bush Redux were not really interesting. Come to think of it i dont really remember watching bush get sworn in either. I didnt really care cause i couldnt vote and i wouldnt have voted for him if i could have. So here it is Jan 19. I dont think there is any mail delivery today cause its martin luther king jr. day. Another good thing about my birthday is that usually it was preceded by a three day weekend. sometimes we even had my birthday off because my birthday WAS MLK day. i love that. I dont think i got MLK off once i moved to AZ. Which is odd. In nebraska you get a three day weekend for MLK and there are 14 black people in the whole state. here, where there are far more black people. i didnt get it off. Not that you must be black to like MLK its just an odd thing. This is really just a rambling entry. Mainly because i dont really have anything to say. My daughter is amazing. She has two teeth, she can squirm backwards but hasnt figured out crawling foward. she is eating a few solids now: she hates green beans, loves prunes, hates bananas, loves peas. so far thats all we have confirmed. She knows shes cute when she eats too. she'll dive on the spoon and eat a big big then stare right and you and grin while she tries to swallow. its so great, i wish i got to see her more, but here i am going off to work again. have a good week everyone | | Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008 | | 12:26 am |
Greetings from the east side hilton
Sewage backed up into our house on saturday. Five days before christmas a water restoration company was ripping out our carpet and cutting down walls. they put up plastic sheeting to quarentine the area affected. and as that is our only bathroom and all of the fixture have been removed. we live in a hotel until the rebuild is complete. the estimate from the contractor our insurance sent out says it will take about ten days from the start date. ugh. Merry First Christmas Maggie, you will be spending it in the residence inn at the williams center (the extended stay place our insurance is paying for) this blows. | | Friday, December 19th, 2008 | | 9:01 pm |
so anyway
Luis made a great effort to make me feel better about myself this christmas-time. I say christmas-time because we have NEVER successfully waited until christmas to give gifts. He bought me a new purse filled with girly things, hair brushes, lotion, lip gloss etc and some trendier name brand clothes. he bought me a perfume that he likes etc all of which were just so very very sweet. I've spent the six months since maggie was born lamenting my lost self. The problem is i never really had a self to begin with. I didnt really have any hobbies ever, nor did i have a clothing style, or really any interest in either. basically i went to movies and slept. it was all very sad. So in anticipation of new years i've decided to focus a little more on becoming a person i like in the new year. Not that i disliked myself last year but more there wasnt much there to care about one way or the other. I want to feel like im something special instead of always feeling like luis could justifiably walk out on me any second and find someone better. I've already started cooking much more and i'd like to keep that up in the new year. i want to be a better technical cook. i'd like to get better at identifying flavors that go well together and hopefully by the end of the year have some recipies of my own. I'd like to be more interested in how i look. not that im disinterested now, but my theory is all about not drawing too much attention to myself. if i try to look good i might look bad and people will think im an idiot cause i HONESTLY thought i looked good when i left the house. stacy and clinton frown on this behavior. Its not fair to my husband or the people who have to look at me to put up with half-dressed uncombed disinterested katie. I need to find clothes that fit me. I need to make my body something i'm more comfortable in. I need to be more flexible in order to do this so that im not ridgid and awkward all the time. Most people would name this category "lose weight" but the problem is i weigh less now than before i got pregnant (114, go me!) but it just doesnt LOOK the same. i feel like i look like i had a baby which bothers me. I miss being able to look down and see Katie, not Maggie's mom. I'm confident that makes me a bad mother.... i should be ok with it but i really am not. So thats it. Cook more/better, pay attention to my personal apperance/stop being a coward about it, and be comfortable in my own body. wish me luck | | Sunday, November 23rd, 2008 | | 3:00 pm |
I'm christian, that doesnt mean im crazy. Parts 1 and 2
I've started posting this on myspace and facebook. i'll write a new chapter every week or so. lemme know what you think:
Chapter one: Its not detrimental so why write it?
I must first preface this book with an brief rundown of my beliefs. I am a Chistian, and actually I can name the religion I belong to with more specificity but I choose not to as I am not speaking on behalf of that church. So, for the sake of full disclosure, I am not an Evangelical Christian, I am a Normal Christian. Yes, I do believe in all sorts of things that Atheists would find completely abominable like resurrection from the dead, sin, God and that great big divisive being: Jesus. I think Jesus was a real live man who walked around on the Earth, was really and truly crucified and really and truly dead. I also believe Romans poked him with a stick to make sure he was dead. Sound pretty human to me. I believe he rose from the dead and that the act of dying and resurrecting served to save the whole wide world from eternal punishment for sin. Yep, its all pretty nutty but at least I’m willing to admit it sounds crazy.
I do not believe that minuet differences in doctrine can prevent a person from going to heaven. I believe salvation is a gift from God given to all the world. To me, to say that believing that the gays are or are not saved can prevent a person from going to heaven really craps on the idea that Jesus’s death meant something. If you can overthrow it that easily then really, what was the point? He knew we were all sinful, if his salvation was that weak, I doubt he’d have gone through all the trouble. Did you see that Mel Gibson movie? That looked like it hurt! I don’t see someone going through all of that only to have it be rendered meaningless over a matter of semantics. I am pretty sure the only way you can ruin your own salvation is to blatantly turn it down. Meaning to look at the gift God gave you and say “Ya ,I get what your Son did, but I’m totally fine over here without it. Did you happen to keep the receipt?”
So then you might ask yourself: “what the point in writing something that’s apt to offend many Evangelicals?” If I don’t think their belief in the necessity to invite Jesus into your heart (more on that later) is detrimental to their salvation, why would I bother to correct them? My answer is simple: the behavior of modern Evangelicals is such a turn off to the world at large that people look at them and say “you’re crazy and your god is worthless.” As noted above I do believe that is detrimental to someone’s salvation. The Bible says it is better to have a millstone tied to your neck and get dropped into the sea than to corrupt the minds of children (Mark 9:42). Every day I see these beliefs pushed out into the world in such a fashion as to turn people with childlike faiths away from Christ. I see modern Evangelical Christianity as the greatest threat to Christianity as a whole since the Roman Catholic Church circa 1517.
So my friends I am hear to tell you that the crazy Christianity you read about is teaching some things that are either just not in the Bible or are playing up minute parts of the Bible in order to forsake the whole message. Stop looking around, there is no Kool-aide that I want you to drink. I’m just here to remind you that Christianity is about love and grace, not about gays and abortions. There are normal Christians out there. In fact, you could be friends with one right now and not even know it. I’m hear to tell you how we see it
Chatpter 2: Jesus: Everlasting God or Undead Succubus?
I was recently talking to a group of Christian friends about how its so difficult to find a decent Bible study anymore. Those of you non-Christians may not be able to relate. But for those of us who consider ourselves “normal” Christians its easy to spot a bad Bible study within the first five to ten minutes. They usually start with people going around the room to introduce themselves. If, during that introduction, you hear the phrase “I was saved on…” followed by a date, you’ve found yourself in a bad Bible study. You can either fake a 911 text from your baby sitter and get out now, or prepare yourself for several grueling hours of talking about when you dropped to your knees and prayed the sinners prayer. Usually these involve some kind of testimony about how lost their lives were and how once they invited Jesus into their hearts they turned their lives around and were saved.
Evangelicals base this off of Romans 10:9 which says “If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.” It is a pretty literal interpretation of the Bible. I’m not really sure where the inviting Jesus into your heart came from. My best guess is John 1:12 which talks about receiving God. I suppose that’s sort of like receiving a guest into your home, and if you have a guest who hasn’t been invited you’re probably not going to be too excited to receive them. However, the Bible does not clearly say “you must say the sinners prayer and ask Jesus into your life or you are going to hell.” By the Evangelical definition I am going to hell. This is despite my love for Jesus, my interest in acting in accordance with His word and the fact that I remember (usually) to capitalize the H in Him when referring to Jesus. I was raised in the church. My mom sent me to Sunday school all my life and only in college did I stop going to church every Sunday. I am what an Evangelical would call “religious.” This is code for “can probably out-Bible them because I was actually forced by my pastor to read the Bible, the whole Bible. Not just Revelation and Romans.”
To me, believing that one needs to invite Jesus into their heart puts Jesus on par with vampires. They, also, must be invited in in order to become a part of your life. Ironically, they also make you undead, sort of similar to giving you eternal life, yes? But I digress. To say that it’s a requirement to invite Jesus into your heart means that the converse must also be true: Jesus can’t enter your heart without invitation. Is it just me or does that not sound like an all powerful God to you? If I, with my mere human mind, can keep all powerful Christ from going wherever He chooses to go, does that not make me more powerful than Christ? The belief is flattering, to be sure, but I doubt the truth to it. It also implies that God’s ultimate goal was to put attachments on His salvation. That seems to me the total opposite of the point to having Christ die for our sin in the first place. Christ did away with the need for animal sacrifice for our sin. So, now you don’t need to kill a goat and say “Hey, Big Daddy that one was for the fornication!” Christ already died for everyone. So no one needs to give up those sacrifices anymore. God knew we were going to fail. He made the thing fool proof. God already knew the world was getting really big. He was aware how the story changes every time it gets told. God actually saw all the Evangelical insanity thousands of years before it happened. That’s why salvation is now so easy. Just don’t throw it away and you’re solid. For those of you out there who constantly say things like “what about kids in Africa who die of malaria at age ten and never heard about Christ?” I have an answer. Its pretty hard to reject something you’ve never heard of right? So I’m pretty sure that little girl is gonna be just fine. The Bible doesn’t require all of these steps and Jesus’s death didn’t happen as a way to rule out who is or is not saved. John 3:16-17 “For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten Son. That whoever believes in Him will not parish but have eternal life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him.”
This leads us to chapter three, “What about the Jews?”
| | Tuesday, November 18th, 2008 | | 8:57 pm |
The Rapture
My sister in law took my husband out to coffee this saturday and told him she doesnt want him to worry if she and their mother just disappear one day. She says that people are going to start just disappearing out of their cars while driving because God is going to rapture them and there will be lots of car accidents. Now i dont know if this sounds crazy to you but it does to me. especially because i've been a Christian my whole life and have never been told this type of nonsense. So i did some research. This is called Dispensationalism. it has to do with the fact that they believe in two seperate bodies of christ. The jew's and pre-christ believers are one and then the post-pentecostal christians are the other. They therefore believe christ will come back twice in the end times. one "for" the believers and one "with" the believers. they think the "for" comes before the seven years of tribulation to pick up all the current post-penecostal christians so they dont have to go through the tribulation. then the "with" he comes back for anyone who's left on earth that accepted christ but was killed by the anti-christ's minions. or still alive somehow. I'm not really sure where they get this "two bodies" thing. i read a book and they sorta explained it but really it wasnt convincing. Hebrews talks about the pre-christ jew and current church as being parts of one good olive tree. the non-believing jews are the torn off branches and the new christians are branches grafted to the tree. So it seems to me, one body. not two trees, or three... just the one. then that whole rapture thing... its no where in the bible. most the stuff i've read bases it on the fact that the "church" isnt mentioned in the part of revelation that describes the tribulation. but then again, the word "church" isnt it the part describing heaven either so.... what does that mean? and they also use verses saying god will "keep the believers" from the hand of the anti-christ. it says KEEP not TAKE. two different words even in greek. All of it is based on this misguided belief in two bodies. its really odd. how do you tell your daughter "your aunt and grandma are crazy dont worry about it" when they are adamantly trying to get her to "confess with her mouth that jesus is lord." we're christian, like some people are jewish. we were born that way its how we roll. We subscribe to normal christianity not weird theologies that didnt show up until 1830 and go in and out of vouge with the "born again" crowd. | | 7:28 pm |
| | Wednesday, November 12th, 2008 | | 7:38 pm |
Six Sigma
This week i've joined my first "greek" organization. I am now a CALG Lean Six Sigma Yellow Belt. I'm sure that means NOTHING to most people. but Six Sigma is an efficiency system thats used by 90% of the top 1000 companies in the world. It teaches you to look at processes and find the waste and cut it out. Because i saved the company a potential 11 million dollars by correcting the FMLA violation, they've let me into this program. i'm the lowest ranking person in GE history to do it. That being the case, im planning to demand the give me the Analyist position they turned me down for last spring. The guy they gave it to posted for another position within a few weeks and bounced. I want to do that job. I want them to put me in for green belt. i wanna have a stake in that company dang it. and i'll draw blood if i have to!! | | 7:33 pm |
about me.
"I like the fierceness of your convictions, the way you speak out even when it's hard. I like the fact that you are doing what you wanted to do, years ago, in being a mother and doing it, from what I can tell, very well. I like your powers of forgiveness. I like the way you bite off darkly ironic statements, turning the corner of your mouth down. I like your refusal, above else, to forget who you were, who you are, and who you want to be." I just needed to post this so i remember it when im less convicted or certain. | | Thursday, November 6th, 2008 | | 3:01 pm |
oh also
even though i doubt anyone read/followed my post regarding the promotion scandal at geico, i'm still going to say this: My complaint to HR was reviewed, I'm right the fact that i was denied the ability to compete for a promotion because of my maternity leave induced fall in numbers is a violation of the FMLA. They are pulling the numbers of anyone who took an FMLA leave in the last five years and adjusting the numbers per my proposal. Anger is a tool for change. | | 3:01 pm |
jacked
 Leave me a comment and I will reply with why I like you. If I feel I don't know you well enough for that, I'll either make something up or tell you why I like your LiveJournal. You must pay for the privilege by posting a message like this one on your LiveJournal. | | Wednesday, November 5th, 2008 | | 3:56 pm |
Obama
I'm excited that i voted for him, im excited hes president and i hope he is as awesome as he plans to be. | | Friday, September 19th, 2008 | | 10:26 pm |
I stand by my word choice
ter·ror·ist /ˈtɛrərɪst/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[ter-er-ist] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun 1. a person, usually a member of a group, who uses or advocates terrorism. 2. a person who terrorizes or frightens others.3. (formerly) a member of a political group in Russia aiming at the demoralization of the government by terror. 4. an agent or partisan of the revolutionary tribunal during the Reign of Terror in France. –adjective 5. of, pertaining to, or characteristic of terrorism or terrorists: terrorist tactics. If believing rape victims should have to give birth to rape babies, then pay to get the rape kit to find out who those babies daddy's are just to satisfy a crazy religious belief isnt terrorism, i dont know what is. I'm not moving to canada, i'm just going to be very sad for america if this woman steps foot in the white house for anything other than to use the bathroom. | | Wednesday, September 17th, 2008 | | 8:10 pm |
how have i failed to write about this?
so i guess im terribly lax in my journaling, because i didnt mention anything about any of this so this may come as a surprise. We bought a house! we closed yesterday and got our keys. so i went tonight with maggie to clean up a bit and had first homeowning mishap: the hot water handle in the bathtub turns but doesnt turn the water off. apparently the internet tells me its a $1 repair. good. i freaked out, shut off the water to the house and ran away!! luis will have to fix it. i didnt get married to do my own plumbing. also how did people own houses before the internet? How do plumbers stay in business how that the internet is here? | | Sunday, September 14th, 2008 | | 10:43 am |
| | Friday, August 22nd, 2008 | | 5:40 pm |
so ronery....
Luis has switched to a schedule where he has tuesday and thursday off so that he can go to school. as such we now have no days at all off together. This week is our first week of this schedule and i already miss him very very badly. He's also very very bad about making maggie take a nap during the day so when i come home she's usually screaming her head off cause shes so tired. So i have to put her down for a nap as soon as i get home, but then i worry about her sleeping through the night so i wake her up and she screams at me until i put her back to bed. the only exception to this in the last two weeks was yesterday when she slept most of the day with luis. i had a nice happy smiling baby then. Today she hasnt napped once luis said. not even in the car seat while he was lugging her around town on errands. so lonely little me sits at home and waits for her to wake up. when i was pregnant i dreamed of her being born and we could play together and i could teach her things and bake together. I forgot she'd be a baby for so long!! so here i am waiting. waiting for luis to come home. waiting for maggie to wake up. waiting for someone to call and ask me to have dinner with them. just waiting to be important. | | Friday, July 25th, 2008 | | 10:31 pm |
| | Wednesday, July 23rd, 2008 | | 9:00 pm |
| | Sunday, July 20th, 2008 | | 4:58 pm |
no-vax?
Unbeknownst to me there is a whole community of people who refuse to vacinate their children... I cannot for the life of me figure out why. there is a whole msg board full of them on ivillage. They say things like "my daughter wound up in the hospital with roteq and i still wouldnt vacinate her for it." Wow thats just cruel... FDR is probably turning over in his grave. |
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